Not sure what I should be doing lately with my life in all honest... feel like Ive hitten so many bumps in the road as of now the car has fallen apart to the last nut.
All I can do at this point is just move forwards with school and try to graduate but I want something more, I have my reason to move forwards and will keep striving towards it, all in the name of holding Sean in my arms one day and being able to protect him in my arms.
I've also felt as if my use for people on FA has gone and been used up... the role of a supporter has never been me at anytime in my life... Im glad to do it and help anyone I can but I want to do something more...
Protector is the role I have been told to do all my life, with no problem I do so and willingly so as no one can ever be alone or sadden. When you have felt truely alone in the dark like a old memory lost under the bed...its something you never want to feel or have anyone feel.
I think im slowly starting to sink back into that dark shell, closing over me a inch by inch with every passing day. I guess thats what happens sometimes when a persons use has been exerted to a point.
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